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My 26 year old sister just announced that she's pregnant. Ouch. For the second time. Ouch. With twins. Ouch f*cking ouch. You know what I've got? 40. I'm turning 40 in 4 months. I have no idea why some people get what they do and why others don't. But it's a pill so hard to swallow, it leaves a giant lump in my throat. I'm happy for her if she's happy. And don't get me wrong, I will be the Auntie that loves them the hardest, like I do this little sweet pea to the left as you've all known. My FB page leaves no doubt. And this is going to feel like shit for a while so in the meantime . . .
Oh, honey. :( I'm so sorry. I can only imagine how difficult this is for you. Sending love.
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Thanks Chantelle! Means more than you know. It's hard to be the person that feels a little awful & awesome about something awesome.
DeleteDon't be too hard on yourself - there's nothing wrong having those feelings. Besides you're going to be an awesome aunt to them no matter what, and that's what really matters. Though personally I agree with the ecard...I'll take cake over babies ANY day ;)
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DeleteMy sister beat me at everything and she was 2 years younger than me. She had the first grandbaby, the second grandbaby, 2 husbands and even died all before me (I don't want the died part), I got married first but that was about all. I know the feelings of a baby for someone and none for me. It's hard but I know you will, like I did, love the neice/nephew as much a worldly possible.
ReplyDeleteTake care and have a blessed day!
Awww, I'm so sorry about you losing your sister. Yes, definitely don't want my sister to beat me to that. It's true, I know I'll love them like crazy. I think I always just go through that mini-grieving process every time someone close to me gets pregnant. Then the babies arrive and I'm shopping for clothes and toys to love on them.
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