Thursday, May 10, 2012

ARGH.

So today my sister sent me a text message that her husband got a job he applied for.  It's 1400 kms (869 miles) away.  If this had happened last year before they got knocked up and shotgun married, I wouldn't have really cared. Might have been a relief really because they create a whole lot of stress.  But it's happening now, now that they have this little monkey. I'm in love with her.  Right after the text message, she splashed it all over facebook in her oh-so-sensitive way and from the comments she has added, they are leaving in a month. The closest I'm ever getting to having a baby is her and she's leaving.  Excuse me while I stuff my face with half a Costo sized bag of Veggie Straws while simultaneously bawling.  Would someone please f*cking stop me?!  I've stopped now because I actually feel sick. The eating, not the crying.

I was supposed to start running this week but said sister, husband and baby were over for dinner Tuesday night and then I babysat so they could go run errands baby-free.  Wednesday, I had a haircut and a massage which I'm so glad I did, and today is just too hot (surprisingly) and now I'm sick-full of Veggie Straws.  Perhaps tomorrow.  I've decided that this should be my TRAINing plan . . . I am Vern in this video, now all I need now is someone to hell "RUN GAWDAMMIT RUN!"  Anyone up for the job?

Other than the blow I took today, the week has been going well.  I made the Pad Thai again.  So tasty and cheap!! The scale is moving in the right direction although the veggie straws might have something to say about that now.  I've somehow managed to avoid any sweets cravings.  I even walked by Werther's and mini peanut butter cups at work repeatedly and didn't want them.  It was weird because I almost had some because I thought I should want them.  How messed up is that?!  Ultimately, I bypassed them and still don't want them.

Now I must clean up my superbly messy place and distract myself for a while.  Also going to pick a few a recipes to try this weekend and make a list.  I'd like to try this Cinnamon Bun Smoothie and these Lasagna Rolls and this Sun-dried Tomato Basil Pesto Pasta.

Okay, pouring myself a big glass of wine now.  Told ya.








9 comments:

  1. Oh no! I am so sad for you. I was JUST spending time with my precious little nephew tonight and was thinking how happy I am to have him so close. Oh my far away friend - I am so sorry.

    But yes, red wine will help. I promise :)

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    1. Thanks Sarah. I know I will feel better in time once they are gone and i'm used to seeing her via skype or in person once a year but right now, I spend time with her three times a week and the thought of not seeing her is devastating at the moment and I well up the second I think of it. So while I know that I will be fine eventually, fresh pain really really blows. And if I could keep my emotions in check at work today, that would be fab :)

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  2. Aw so sorry to hear that! It will take some adjusting for sure. And yeah it's hard when you first find out about something like that. The good news is she's still going to be a part of your life. And maybe it'll give you an excuse to go visit them to see her. Try to keep on the positive vibe you've been working on.
    Oh and for the record, I can yell run at people really well. Just saying :P

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    1. Thanks Nic! Hahahaha - I should have reconsidered that offer of a yeller knowing you would probably read this!!

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  3. Oh Michelle, I know you will miss that sweet little face so much, but she will still be a huge part of your life!! Keep up all your good work, you are inspiring me!LOL! Step away from the veggie stix! Although I'm impressed as they are probably be better of the worst that you could have dove into ;-) Look forward to reviews on the up coming recipes :)

    ((HUGS))

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    1. Thanks Natasha! Yesterday I made Vegan Mac & "Cheese" because I needed the comfort food and it was so good. Hit all the major necessities of Mac & Cheese, kind salty, creamy. Yum!

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  4. Oh gosh - it must be hard to be happy for them when you're hurting like that. I think you have the right attitude to embrace the disappointment, have some upset days (weeks) and then as you say, eventually be fine.

    On a different note - I had totally forgotten that scene - OMG I was nervous watching it. Maybe if you're techie you could have download the audio to add to a play list.

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  5. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww...she's adorable! LOL at your training plan...hahahahah...

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  6. That baby is adorable!! I don't blame you for feeling sad. I'm so sorry!!

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