Weigh-In Monday - Just as I Suspected!!

Well, I kind of knew that last weeks 2 pound loss was 2 good 2 be true!  I was stressed out and I wasn't eating well so to have 2 pounds gone was surprising. Not surprising however, was the return of those 2 pounds today.  Gee, like long lost high school classmates that you never wanted to see again.  Oh gee, hi, yeah you look great.  Get lost!!  Haha!

I love this picture.  Love it.  I want to make it into a poster or find one.  I am clearly the rhino in this situation but this picture hit me on a deeper level than just funny.  Wait, why are you laughing?  Yes I do have a deeper level!! :)  Just like the rhino is attempting to run her ass off while looking at a unicorn, I attempt to run my ass off while looking at magazines.  Whether it is Shape, Fit, Fitness, or Oxygen, I look at those women as ideal and perfect.  The thing to be.  And just like the unicorn, they don't really exist either.  At least not as they are portrayed.  They have been tanned and primped and lighted.  They've had makeup and hair done.  Strategic paint sprayed to add emphasis to abs.  And that's before the airbrushing and photoshop.  So while I have no doubt that they are fit and they do work hard, they still aren't as perfect as they look.  So from here on in, I'm not idolizing the unicorn anymore.  My new motivation is going to be photos of myself from two and three years ago. My other motivations are going to be the before and after pictures of success stories in those magazines, not the models.  Yet another motivation will be the before and during and after shots of other men and women in the blogging community.  There are men in the blogging community right??  Ahahahaha!! These two pictures of myself will be my motivation.  I believe I fluctuated between 160 & 165 here.  I remember feeling really good at this weight mostly because I was comfortable, not very self-conscious, and clothes fit!!!  By comparison, I can also see how much weight I can carry in my face too.  Wowsers.

Next up, PointsPlus Fail.  I was so excited to hit up my meeting tonight and get all the new goods.  I've just been tracking and weighing on eTools.  I showed up there and noticed that the line was moving really quickly and then as I get closer I realize that no one seems to be handing over more cash or getting anything in return and the cookbooks they have displayed are the ones I always saw there or already have.  My excitement starts to wane.  Now it's my turn, I go up and ask if they are starting the PointsPlus tonight.  Nope.  I ask when and she says December 20th or January.  Excitement dead.  Everything I read everywhere said it was starting December 6 in Canada and eTools on the Canadian site started tonight.  Thankfully knowing enough about Weight Watchers, I can muddle my way through it for now but it blows to not have any materials to read or a calculator to use.  I will just have to be near a computer before I decide to eat something.  Oh wait, I'm on a computer all day at work and most of the evening at home.  Hahaha!  Well look, I just wanted the new stuff okay!  I have since sent an email to customer service asking what date they are planning to launch because I don't really want to waste another trip.  I didn't stay for the meeting because I wasn't going to pay $15 to be told I'm up 2 pounds and no new fun stuff to show for it.  As I was leaving, I was so wanting to just hit a drive thru because that's my thing when I'm disappointed, sad, mad, happy, hurt, breathing.  I was so close.  Then I didn't.  HUGE NON-SCALE VICTORY! I made a meal plan yesterday and even a bit of meal and snack prep.  My chicken breast is in the oven as I type.  :)

Activity Victory -- I walked home from work today.  7 kms.  It took me an hour and five minutes.  It was really good.  The sidewalks got tricky in two places where I had to climb a little snowbank and it got a little bit colder as I got closer to home because it started to get darker.  But other than that, it was awesome and I'm going to do it again tomorrow!!

Gotta go put the veggies on!!  Oh, and does the WW PointsPlus logo remind anyone else of birth control??  Seriously, I have no idea why but every time I look at it, I think birth control.  

Ta ta for now!

Michelle

ps.  I'm watching Julie & Julia right now and it just came to the part where she gets her first comment on her blog and she is so excited and then she sees that it's her mother "I still don't know why you're doing this, I appear to be your only reader."  AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!  I think that is sooooo much funnier now that I have a blog!!!  I love comments so I understand her excitement and subsequent disappointment.