Sunday, September 2, 2012
End of a Streak
It's Saturday afternoon as I write this. Just got home from run 7. It sucked. My legs felt like bricks. It was the first time to run 3 minutes and I couldn't do it. Well, maybe not 'couldn't' but 'didn't'. My mind won. I kept thinking "i have to stop, I can't do this, I have to stop". Then I started talking in my head with each step. Left foot was "don't", right foot was "stop". Don't stop don't stop don't stop. That worked for about 30 seconds and at 2:45, I stopped. I bailed on the last 15 seconds of the first three minute segment. 15 SECONDS! On the second one, I bailed at 2 minutes. I ran both of the 90 second segments. I can't help but think that if I'd made it on the first segment, I would have felt motivated enough to do the second. From the stats on the treadmill, it looks like a typical run, but it should have been further distance-wise if I'd done all the running. I have to do the same thing on Monday morning. If it doesn't work out better on Monday morning, I'm deleting today's run and starting week 3 over. If it goes well, I'll let today's run stand. Leaving the Y, I felt defeated but just had to remember that saying about lapping everyone on the couch. And it's a million times more than I was doing a month ago. I had to kick away the "maybe I can't do this after all" thoughts.
Also, a few weeks ago, I bought some workout capris and a t-shirt by Athletic Works at Walmart. I was excited to see some generous sizing for cheap. I have lots of technical running clothes but they are all smaller. Sigh. I only had one outfit that fit me currently and needed another for how often I've been working out. It's a good problem to have really. I absolutely love the capris and will buy more. I hate the t-shirt. The first time I wore it, I felt like it was making me hotter not cooler. It was humid that day so I figured that was it. Today though, I wore it again, same thing. I felt like I was running in a ziploc bag. I will not buy this shirt again and will go to another store and spend a little more money to get something better. This is the label, don't buy it. Again, the capris by the same company are great.
And now it's Sunday evening. I just had too many cookies. Oh self-destruction. Good thing Monday is a new day. Grrrr.