End of a Streak

It's Saturday afternoon as I write this.  Just got home from run 7.  It sucked.  My legs felt like bricks.  It was the first time to run 3 minutes and I couldn't do it.  Well, maybe not 'couldn't' but 'didn't'.  My mind won.  I kept thinking "i have to stop, I can't do this, I have to stop".  Then I started talking in my head with each step.  Left foot was "don't", right foot was "stop".  Don't stop don't stop don't stop.  That worked for about 30 seconds and at 2:45, I stopped.  I bailed on the last 15 seconds of the first three minute segment.  15 SECONDS!  On the second one, I bailed at 2 minutes.  I ran both of the 90 second segments.  I can't help but think that if I'd made it on the first segment, I would have felt motivated enough to do the second.  From the stats on the treadmill, it looks like a typical run, but it should have been further distance-wise if I'd done all the running.  I have to do the same thing on Monday morning.  If it doesn't work out better on Monday morning, I'm deleting today's run and starting week 3 over. If it goes well, I'll let today's run stand.  Leaving the Y, I felt defeated but just had to remember that saying about lapping everyone on the couch.  And it's a million times more than I was doing a month ago.  I had to kick away the "maybe I can't do this after all" thoughts.

Also, a few weeks ago, I bought some workout capris and a t-shirt by Athletic Works at Walmart.  I was excited to see some generous sizing for cheap.  I have lots of technical running clothes but they are all smaller.  Sigh.  I only had one outfit that fit me currently and needed another for how often I've been working out.  It's a good problem to have really.  I absolutely love the capris and will buy more.  I hate the t-shirt.  The first time I wore it, I felt like it was making me hotter not cooler.  It was humid that day so I figured that was it.  Today though, I wore it again, same thing.  I felt like I was running in a ziploc bag.  I will not buy this shirt again and will go to another store and spend a little more money to get something better.  This is the label, don't buy it.  Again, the capris by the same company are great.  

And now it's Sunday evening.  I just had too many cookies.  Oh self-destruction.  Good thing Monday is a new day.  Grrrr.